She’s everything

“She’s Everything”…that’s what’s playing on CMT right now so seems fitting as a title for this post. It’s a song I relate to…not because I think I am everything, but because it is about all the little things that make up one person. I don’t want to know myself for all the degrees, articles, presentations, etc. that I do during my lifetime, but for all the other things that are who I am…the things that people who have known me for a long, long time know about me. I am lucky enough to connect with some of those people (online and in person) every once in a while and it is so nice to have those folks around to know me for me, plain and simple. And there are still people who are newer to my life who seem to “get me”. It catches me off guard when it happens, but I am always so grateful when it does.
I am in between engagements right now as spring semester starts and summer sessions loom in the not so far off distance. It’s nice. I can catch my breath for a second or two and focus on some items that have been a little neglected. Sometimes that’s good and sometimes it’s more anxiety provoking than I care to acknowledge. Tonight, though, Carla came over (like the good ole days of two years ago) and we shared a bottle of wine and talked about things mostly unrelated to school. It was nice. That connection gets lost sometimes. And being able to spend time right now with Elysia and Connor is a gift, one that will be short-lived but long lasting. I am grateful to be around for at least a little while to watch her become a mom.
There really are so many things in my life to be grateful for, and I am still working on that being in the moment and loving where I am. I guess we all hit a spot where we wish for something we don’t yet have. I am practicing my patience and hoping that all the pieces fall together soon and in the mean time that I can continue to pay attention to how much I love my present life and how lucky I really am.