Putting things off. I’ve been guilty of being too busy, of letting people and time slip by, of not being present. I think this will always be a work in progress for me. I love my work and the work that finds me. I love newness, innovation, adventure. Sometimes I forget the old or the familiar.
Next week, I am going out to LA. I’ve never been! I’m going to see an old friend in a new place. She’s adjusting….we’ll leave it at that. I don’t think she realizes what an inspiration she is to so many people, girls especially, because she is going after a dream that once seemed impossible. I love her. She is one of my very favorite people. And it breaks my heart to hear her say things like, “I don’t like myself” or “I think mean things about myself”. She is awesome! I’m flying across the country to remind her of that!
I also have a close friend, and a couple of acquaintances, who were recently diagnosed with Stage 3 or Stage 4 Cancer. Nothing like cancer to help me remember to live in the moment. The things that sometimes seem so big are truly so small compared to what is most meaningful in life, our relationships.
And while I’m better than most about staying in touch, maintaining close ties, and keeping people around, I always also feel inept at spending the time I want to spend with people who I love dearly. And it’s not just life getting in the way. It’s me, getting in my own way, with my mucked up priorities.
So I’m gonna keep working on it. And I’m gonna try to catch myself when I say “In a or two” or “when things are less busy”.
Joyful Striving 