Busy Man

I read a quote recently that says, “Start at the Beginning and go to the end. Then stop.” Seems simple enough. However, I’m beginning to think I don’t seem to have an awareness for when I’ve reached the end. I tend to keep going, afraid of ending too soon. Something might come up. This might lead to something. Maybe I’m missing something. I’d hate to walk away too soon.

This crops up in all areas of my life. Work. Love. Friends. Relationships. Geographic Location.

It’s why I’m always so busy, I believe. I’m never quite letting go of one thing when I’m on to the next thing. I wind up with a collection. I currently have a collection of jobs. My full-time job is as the School Health Program Manager for Piedmont Health Services. It’s a title I hate but a job I love…most of the time. We just opened a school-based health center at the elementary school where I used to teach, where I used to be a school counselor. I also recently co-founded a company, Multiplicity Concepts, with my friend, Elysia. We’re already doing some awesome things and it’s really taking off! Let’s keep going, shall we?

Today, I moved all of my counseling things (e.g., toys, books, paperwork, etc.) into my own counseling office. It’s beautiful! Picture black and white tile floors, high ceilings, double doors, and natural sunlight. I haven’t had an office of my own in two years. It’s a dream to be starting to do some private practice counseling work. I also teach, for The University of Northern Colorado, and I do supervision for The University of North Carolina at Greensboro. And it’s possible I might start teaching Pure Barre when the new studio opens up in Greensboro this fall. How many jobs are we up to?

I’m working on simplifying. I’d somehow like to start weeding out the “work” that is less meaningful and spend my time on that which I love. It’s a matter of pros and cons. Cost vs. Benefit. Finding that which is most meaningful (because to me, it is all meaningful) and focusing my energy in one direction. It’s harder than it sounds. It’s very, very hard for me.

So, I’m looking for the end. Exploring new beginnings. And hopefully, someday soon, I will be able to stop and be less busy a woman…at least for a time.